Category: Live & Learn

Life lessons, experiences, joys and disappointments and my take on it all!

Family Estrangement…Reblog (not written by me, but I could have!)

I Am Permanently Estranged From My Toxic Mother, But I’m Still Sad We Aren’t Close   Anonymous author   I look at my beautiful daughter and wonder how I could ever feel anything but love and respect for her.  I always want to be her safe place and someone she can trust with her entire being. Then I look at… Read more →

I Can See For Miles & Miles

For as long as I can remember, I dreamt of traveling.  As a child, we didn’t venture far.  When I hit high school, I took my first journeys away from home, my first time flying too.  Travel was sparse when the kids were little, but by the time my oldest graduated, I was hell bent on taking them on some… Read more →

A Recap of My Unforgettable 50th Birthday Year

As I sit here on the eve of my 51st birthday, I feel compelled to reflect and recap this past year of changes, experiences, discoveries, adventures, and challenges.  Turning 50 and the months that followed, was epic and not to mention, overwhelming. To kick off my “50th birthday”, Jamison and I started with running, ok, so it wasn’t really running,… Read more →

My Reality TV Stint: One Born Every Minute

7 years ago, many of my coworkers & myself had our shot at being on national television; not once, but for a series!  The producers (from The Office & Biggest Loser to name a few) spent several months at our hospital (Riverside Methodist), for 2 seasons back to back, filming the reality TV show “One Born Every Minute”. The series… Read more →

Mommie Dearest (1981)

I’ve decided to start watching some of the older, classic movies that I’ve never watched.  I started off with a real doozie: “Mommie Dearest”.  This movie, starring Faye Dunaway is about the life of actress, Joan Crawford and displays narcissism at its finest and encompasses alcoholism, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and parental abuse; while being able to receive respect and a positive… Read more →

An Unexpected Outcome

Since Luna came into our lives, every blog post I’ve written focuses on her FIP and the drug trial. What I haven’t shared about our little sweetie, is how Luna joined our family earlier this year.  We have a habit of doing things the hard way and for us, buying a specific breed of cat and having things go easy, was… Read more →

The Ghost of Motherhood Past-Little League Edition

My run this evening took me on a paved trail through many ball fields, all loaded with little kids learning about rules, competition, teamwork, sweat, dirt, foul balls, blocked bases, athletic cups, and endless days of being a slave to a sport vs. free playtime. Some kids are there by choice and some are there by means of parental bribe to… Read more →

26 Reasons You Should Call Your Mom Often (no, not every day!)

Your mom was your first friend (for most). As cliché as it might sound, she’s been there for you through thick and thin — standing behind you with Advil when you first tightened your expander; encouraging your dreams of stardom when you joined that terrible band; holding you as you wept over your first broken heart. She’s your biggest fan and never fails… Read more →

“Patriot’s Day” Movie (The 2013 Boston Bombing)

We watched the movie “Patriot’s Day” last night and I have to say, reliving our experience of the Boston Bombing was uncomfortable. I guess there is a lot that Jamie and I blocked out, yet we have always known that we cut it close and are very fortunate to be spared from injury. It was crazy seeing in the movie, the spot where he sat waiting for me (by the first backpack/bomb at the finish line), how close I was to the blasts, after having just finished, and how he missed the second bomb when he went to use the restroom at Starbucks after I finished. They used some live footage from that day in the movie too. Hearing the sound of the blasts again was all too familiar and disturbing. I still think often of those victims whose lives changed forever that day in such a traumatic way. I wonder if our country will ever see an end to terror? I wonder if we will ever truly be safe doing the things that we love? I don’t think so and that is sad and terrifying.
Had this been one of my slower marathons, our story may not have had the ending that it did. I’m not trying to be dramatic; it is what it is. I was so happy in these pictures. I had spotted Jamie and was so relieved to be finishing. I was in so much pain from a hamstring injury 2 days before the race and had slowed down a bit during the second half. Had I not gotten injured, I would’ve been done and out of that area a good 10-20 minutes sooner!
These are some of the photos that Jamie snapped at the finish line of the wheelchair and elite winners and then finally, me. He sat there from 6:30 (to make sure he had a close finish line spot) till I finished around 2:33. Many of these photos are quite similar to the footage in the film, which is even more eerie. It still seems surreal that I can say that we have witnessed a true, live, terrorist attack.
I learned so much from this experience; mostly, that you can’t live in fear and that you should always be aware of your surroundings no matter where you are, what you are doing and despite how “safe” you think you feel. I learned that Boston is one amazingly strong and protective city who will not tolerate violence and will come back stronger than ever. Many people said that I was crazy for going back in 2014 and running that race again. “What if it happens again”? I said that it had to be done and that it would be safer than ever this time. Fear will not win and we should never let it. I wanted to experience the celebration of not just running this well-earned race a second time, but of the strength, unity and resilience of what is the human race!

Boston’s finest keeping us safe. Little did they know just how difficult their job would become that day

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